Good Morning. Sunday, August 26, 2007
I woke up this morning in a semi panic.
The house is a mess. The power was knocked out and it’s now 10:45 and I was supposed to meet a group of people at 11:00 for a weekly exercise walk. No chance I’ll make it. The drive in 15 minutes away and the clothes I popped into the dryer last night are lying in a knotted bundle in the dryer. Today is Mom’s birthday and I didn’t even get her anything including a card. I have to do laundry and get that fucking gum out of my pants that some asshole decided to leave on the chair. I need to check my email. Internet is down. House is a mess. Dishwasher isn’t working even after we called in the warranty and had someone look at it. Why do I have to wash everything before I put it into the dishwasher? Isn’t that what a dishwasher is for? Grumbling and the ‘poor me syndrome’ echoed throughout the condo.
Then, I realized that all of this stuff was my mental rehearsing and I was beginning to color how my day was going to go if I didn’t stop right NOW.
So, I rinsed the dishes and put them in the dishwasher. I straightened as I went. I grabbed the pants with the gum, put them in a bag and put them into the deep freeze. I decided that I would give Mom the money to buy the purse she wanted because she was going to visit my Aunt and they both love to go shopping. Besides, Mom and I have totally different taste in purses. I’d pick up a funky Kathy Van Zeeland and she’d pick up a vinyl functional type person. I then realized that I was connecting the gift to how I showed my Mom how much I loved her. That is definitely not the case.
Then, the light bulb came on. I’d normally use food to make myself feel better so I was now going to doctor myself. I grabbed the blender, rinsed the fresh Kale, cut up some strawberries and a banana, poured in Udo’s oil and added a bit of liquid gold – Pomegranate and Blueberry Juice. Blended it and then nourished my soul. I suddenly calmed down and with that I took a deep breath.
Why should a delay prevent me from my original goal? Instead, I’m going to wake up Mike and invite him to come for a walk with me along trails we always planned to and never did..until now. Now is the time.
I woke up this morning in a semi panic.
The house is a mess. The power was knocked out and it’s now 10:45 and I was supposed to meet a group of people at 11:00 for a weekly exercise walk. No chance I’ll make it. The drive in 15 minutes away and the clothes I popped into the dryer last night are lying in a knotted bundle in the dryer. Today is Mom’s birthday and I didn’t even get her anything including a card. I have to do laundry and get that fucking gum out of my pants that some asshole decided to leave on the chair. I need to check my email. Internet is down. House is a mess. Dishwasher isn’t working even after we called in the warranty and had someone look at it. Why do I have to wash everything before I put it into the dishwasher? Isn’t that what a dishwasher is for? Grumbling and the ‘poor me syndrome’ echoed throughout the condo.
Then, I realized that all of this stuff was my mental rehearsing and I was beginning to color how my day was going to go if I didn’t stop right NOW.
So, I rinsed the dishes and put them in the dishwasher. I straightened as I went. I grabbed the pants with the gum, put them in a bag and put them into the deep freeze. I decided that I would give Mom the money to buy the purse she wanted because she was going to visit my Aunt and they both love to go shopping. Besides, Mom and I have totally different taste in purses. I’d pick up a funky Kathy Van Zeeland and she’d pick up a vinyl functional type person. I then realized that I was connecting the gift to how I showed my Mom how much I loved her. That is definitely not the case.
Then, the light bulb came on. I’d normally use food to make myself feel better so I was now going to doctor myself. I grabbed the blender, rinsed the fresh Kale, cut up some strawberries and a banana, poured in Udo’s oil and added a bit of liquid gold – Pomegranate and Blueberry Juice. Blended it and then nourished my soul. I suddenly calmed down and with that I took a deep breath.
Why should a delay prevent me from my original goal? Instead, I’m going to wake up Mike and invite him to come for a walk with me along trails we always planned to and never did..until now. Now is the time.
4 comments:
Well, let me be the first to comment your site (accidentally opened in my browser)...so, internet crashes even in the US ;)
Well, I believe that things happen for a reason. What reason do you believe brought your comments to my blog?
My morning has been like that. Power outtage, internet outtage...
Have a great day.
OSC
OSC - good for you for catching your mood and shifting. Awareness is 90% of the battle.
You are right, nothing happens by accident. Would have been great to see you this morning but it wasn't meant to be. You obviously learned a lot from today and grew - that's important too. Now you know you can do that and catch yourself before going into a tail spin.
Great job on the green smoothie - how was it?
We'll be there again next Sunday and if it's right, you'll join us.
Ha! I can hear one psychologist saying that nothing happens without a reason. People are writeing blogs to make themselves feel better, to show how smart they are ... That's my opinion. What is yours?
Best Regards. ;)
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